Hi! welcome back to another episode of Jen’s 3 AM Thoughts! when most people are having their beauty sleep, my brain decides that even a long sleep can’t help my face, so why bother?
First, I want to tell you that my birthday was last week. I’m 26 now. This is the age where you draw an official line which any birthday after this will be a torture. You realize that you’re getting old, haven’t accomplished anything that you’re proud of, and you see your reflection in the mirror and start to notice a few fine lines and dark circle under your eyes and thinking: what have I done to myself? You even start to think about your health. How you always take it for granted. At 26, you’ve heard and seen many deaths. And this is when you realize that it’s coming to you whether you welcome it or not, whether you’re ready or not, whether you’ve accomplished all your life goals or not. It doesn’t give a fuck. Those thoughts come to me at these hours mostly. Is all those Indomies worth the cancer? And will these sleepless nights affect my liver?
Do you think the same thing too? Or is it just me? hahahhaha
Okay, that’s mindfuck enough for an introduction. Now I want to talk about mass movements that have been going strong for the past several years.
Feminist movement. If you google feminism, you’ll find that it got its peak during the early 70s when women fought for its right to vote. But let me tell you, women actually have been fighting for their basic right for centuries. Starting from their rights for getting the same level of education as men, rights to work in the same field as men and getting the equal payment based on their performance, rights to choose to whom they’ll be married and WHEN and even as insignificant as the rights to wear the type of clothes they want.
Why do we have to fight for it while men get all these privileges fall into their hand effortlessly?
I’ve been raised in a very strict religious family, so i got my bible education covered. I don’t mean to give any religious statement or what. This is something that i’ve been told all my life and forced to believe. I just want to dissect this topic from the core. (Yah you know what i mean )
This is where it’s start.
18The LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”21So the LORD God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man’s ribs and then closed up the place with flesh.22 Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man.23The man said, “This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called ‘woman,’ for she was taken out of man.”24 That is why a man leaves his father and mother and is united to his wife, and they become one flesh.
I want to talk about this first. About the nature of why God decided to separate human into a Man and a Woman. He made a creature that was based on His feature, but then this creature seemed lonely and helpless so He made him a helper from his bone. He could just make other men. But He didn’t. He made another type of creature, with a different feature. Why did He do that?
Even women’s nature here is already below Men. Because we were made to help men not the other way around. And also our origin is from men’s bone. Which naturally give him power over us.
This is seriously got me thinking so hard, and i can’t help but feeling sad. I want to ask God, why do He created us as a head and a tail and not as something equal. Why do we have to help men? Not helping each other as a partner? Why do we are the one who has to get period and pregnant at the same time? Hahahhahahhahha. Seriously. Why can’t we share it like, women get pregnant for nine months, but men are the one who feel the labor’s pain. Hahahahhaha.
I’m sorry, it’s just, i’m the type of person who values fairness highly.
And it moves me to another question, “If we were made to be inferior compared to men, then all the things we do now, is actually women against God, right?” I feel like we are creations who asking its creator why He made us this way, while He got every right to make us the way He wanted.
So is it really wrong to question God about this?
Next, i want to talk about Paul’s word in Timothy. If Paul lived today, He would sound like an asshole.
9 I also want the women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, adorning themselves, not with elaborate hairstyles or gold or pearls or expensive clothes,10 but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God.11 A woman should learn in quietness and full submission.12 I do not permit a woman to teach or to assume authority over a man; she must be quiet.13 For Adam was formed first, then Eve.14 And Adam was not the one deceived; it was the woman who was deceived and became a sinner.15 But women will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith, love and holiness with propriety.
Listen to all of these verses! I can’t even decide where to start. But I’m gonna start with how I start to question whether I’d like Paul or not if we met in real life. #rollingeyes
I was forced to believe all the words in the bible. (Seriously, i’m not saying this in an atheist manner, but sometimes i question a lot of its parts. Like whether this is really God’s word, or it came from the preacher’s limited understanding of God’s words. If you go back to the first verse i gave you, all of Paul’s words is not wrong at all. Women is made after men, so submit to your men.
And I actually really mad with the part where he blames Eve for falling into Snake’s trap. So this is our punishment then?
This one is from Titus.
3 Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good.4 Then they can urge the younger women to love their husbands and children,5 to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God.
So, Paul, Men can be a drinker but women can’t?
Women have to be at home? Have to be pure? While Men can go around doing shit and don’t have to suffer from social judgment?
Ugh I feel like a sinner for even questioning this.
22 Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands as you do to the Lord.23 For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior
Okay this one makes everything clear. Men is the head and Women is the body (or tail ).
I don’t know if fighting for equality for women is wrong or not in God’s eyes. (I do want to know tho) But i personally feel really lucky to be born in the era when women have all the access to education in particular. I just can’t imagine if i was forced to stay at home and cleaning houses, and all housewife shit.
When i planned to write this, i google some video on youtube with the keyword “women equality” and its result got me really really sad.And angry. Go search it on youtube, and you’ll get a full 2 pages of youtube videos about “women got the taste of equality and hate it” All of those videos are about how now men have the right to punch women back if women punch them.
This frustrated me.
Why do people see this movement from this point of view?????
Listen i never said that men have no right to fight back. You know, NO ONE SHOULD GET PUNCHED IN THE FIRST PLACE. IT’S NOT ABOUT MEN OR WOMEN. AND TO BE FAIR, WHAT YOU SHOULD REALLY ASK IS WHY THEY GOT PUNCH IN THE FIRST PLACE???????????? IS IT BECAUSE THEY SEXUALLY HARASSED THE PUNCHER OR WHAT? IF THE PUNCHER IS A BULLY, WELL GO FIGHT BACK, I TOTALLY ENCOURAGE YOU, WHETHER YOU’RE A MAN OR WOMAN.
AND WHAT MAKES ME REALLY ANGRY TOO, IS HOW THEY TELL THAT WOMEN IS A HYPOCRITE FOR WANTING EQUALITY BUT STILL DEMAND AN ACT OF CHIVALRY.
WELL MISTERS, LET’S GO BACK TO HISTORY. YOU ARE TALKING LIKE MEN NEVER HIT WOMEN WHILE THEY FUCKING DO IT ALL THE TIME. NOW, WHO’S THE HYPOCRITE?
(i’m sorry i just can’t fight the urge of bolding and capslock-ing it)
God, i feel like a jobless person who loves to pick a fight in the youtube comment section. hahahahhahahha.
Last i want to discuss one of the rights that is also become an issue here. Women’s right to do whatever they want to their own body. Abortion is one of its examples. I used to against it. There’s a big moral issue here. Have this women movement gone too far? i thought. But then they present some cases , which i have to say, that i have no right to comment. Like the case where the woman got raped and then got pregnant. Can you imagine it? You got raped, and the now you have to bear this man’s baby, and you watch him grow up just like that man. You see your rapist’s face in him and hate your child for it. It was both unfair to you and your child. And then imagine all the people in the world judge you for not wanting this child. Acting like they know what it’s like to get raped. Take a moment and imagine that. Feel this woman position as yours. I personally would go all the way possible to abort the pregnancy. Not even think twice. My argument is, why do i am the one who has to suffer, I was the one who got raped, now i have to nurse my rapist child too???? like WTF Hell no. and if someone gets into my way, i would say, you seem like you care a lot about me and this child, do you want to replace me, cause i would gladly watching you are the one who got raped and pregnant. It’s not that i agree on murdering a fetus. It’s just this is the type of crime that i would gladly commit if i were in that position.
In the end, i am deeply torn between questions do us women should continue to fight for the same basic right as men or is it actually against God and the bible? Lord, why you make my brain like thisssss? Hahahahahhahah. Why do i have to think so hard about everything?
okay enough of this now, i’m going to sleep guys, BYE.